How does it feel to noe u r goin to die soon?
What a bad news!! Karen just called me and told me her cousin passed away today. News like this always make me feel so small, like nothing I ever did or felt can measure up to the knowledge & reality of dying, the feeling of it approaching you as you lie on the hospital bed that smells of death. I wonder what was going through her mind as she waited for her time to come, knowing full well her days were numbered. Her boyfriend? Maybe where she'd end up.. if there's another world awaiting her? Or maybe she was too sick to think. It also makes me feel the urgency to reach out to more people, to get them to know Jesus! The mystery of death intrigues and disturbs me deeply. What happens to the person during the passing itself? Those few surreal seconds when life comes to a sudden halt and death snatches the reins from it? They seem like frozen moments encased in still time. I hope I die in my sleep when it's my turn to go. :"(
